Well I started classes for the summer again and I am enjoying them. One class is in disability and we were discussing our own experiences with disability. I can talk about disability all day long with my parents and my work but also in relationships. The conversation in classes prompted me to think about a guy I was dating about 10 years ago. This gentleman was in a wheelchair. He was paralyzed in a car accident that happened the week of graduation, if I remember correctly. He went to my school and graduated the year before. I was not in his "clique" as he was a "jock" and very popular. I was simply a band geek.
I was driving along this passed week and started to think of him. I started to think about how we ended things. It was negative unfortunately. I was frustrated with his need to control my every move and with the fact his friends didn't want him seeing me. Yeah, it was the same friends that were in his circle in high school. Looking back, they actually did have some points. I had just gotten divorced and was severely depressed. I just couldn't decide what I wanted from one minute to the next. I was up and down and all over the place. Looking back I can see my mistakes now; not just his. Then, in doing that, I started to realize how many good things he brought into our life. My girls were really young then and he was always bringing us to events and shows and just was all around so good to them. I realized then that maybe the purpose for him in the time could of very well have been the light we needed in our life at the time. I was working two jobs and going to nursing school. I could barely make ends meet. He was always there to cheer us up and remind us life is good. Maybe that is the ending we needed. Perhaps the Universe needed to thrust us into separate directions so we could move on and find where we needed to be.
Following that realization, I was contacted by an old boss this week. She was a property manager and I was her assistant for a local mall. This was prior to my divorce but it was during a time when I was a new mother and beginning to realize that my relationship with my husband was coming to an end. I had a very difficult time juggling the separation, having two young kids and fitting in my career. I had then been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and I had at that time been experiencing a lot of anxiety and panic attacks. I was a mess. My boss, at that time, was another light for me. She would tell me stories about her younger years where she was struggling and gave me advice. She supported me when I needed her help with work or even at home. She did everything she could to make me the best person I could be. She was and still is a Southern Baptist but I remember her telling me stories of experiences with psychic phenomenon and other experiences that fell outside of her religious teachings. That information wasn't important to me at that time but looking back I can see that little bug in my ear was opening my mind. It wasn't shortly after that my oldest daughter started to experience her own "gifts", in the sixth sense arena and I had to figure out how I was going to deal with that.
I am so appreciative of those two little angels that I had in my life. I guess I could even say Soul Mates but I truly think these two were planned little Angels who came along during certain segments of my planned life to light the way in what was sometimes very dark times. There are many more that I know. I think in my life plan I knew I would need this support and strategically placed these little Angels just at the right time to get me through. I knew they were special but again I didn't make it important in my life at that time. Honestly for many years only the negative aspects (or as I perceived them then) stood out for me.
After Beau triggered my awakening, I really have made so much effort to be more conscious and have gratitude for those lights in my life; my Angels; my Soul Mates/friends; my Karmic Connections and , of course, my Twin Flame aka forever love.
Who are your Angels in your life?
Light & Love,
Lily Belle
I was driving along this passed week and started to think of him. I started to think about how we ended things. It was negative unfortunately. I was frustrated with his need to control my every move and with the fact his friends didn't want him seeing me. Yeah, it was the same friends that were in his circle in high school. Looking back, they actually did have some points. I had just gotten divorced and was severely depressed. I just couldn't decide what I wanted from one minute to the next. I was up and down and all over the place. Looking back I can see my mistakes now; not just his. Then, in doing that, I started to realize how many good things he brought into our life. My girls were really young then and he was always bringing us to events and shows and just was all around so good to them. I realized then that maybe the purpose for him in the time could of very well have been the light we needed in our life at the time. I was working two jobs and going to nursing school. I could barely make ends meet. He was always there to cheer us up and remind us life is good. Maybe that is the ending we needed. Perhaps the Universe needed to thrust us into separate directions so we could move on and find where we needed to be.
Following that realization, I was contacted by an old boss this week. She was a property manager and I was her assistant for a local mall. This was prior to my divorce but it was during a time when I was a new mother and beginning to realize that my relationship with my husband was coming to an end. I had a very difficult time juggling the separation, having two young kids and fitting in my career. I had then been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and I had at that time been experiencing a lot of anxiety and panic attacks. I was a mess. My boss, at that time, was another light for me. She would tell me stories about her younger years where she was struggling and gave me advice. She supported me when I needed her help with work or even at home. She did everything she could to make me the best person I could be. She was and still is a Southern Baptist but I remember her telling me stories of experiences with psychic phenomenon and other experiences that fell outside of her religious teachings. That information wasn't important to me at that time but looking back I can see that little bug in my ear was opening my mind. It wasn't shortly after that my oldest daughter started to experience her own "gifts", in the sixth sense arena and I had to figure out how I was going to deal with that.
I am so appreciative of those two little angels that I had in my life. I guess I could even say Soul Mates but I truly think these two were planned little Angels who came along during certain segments of my planned life to light the way in what was sometimes very dark times. There are many more that I know. I think in my life plan I knew I would need this support and strategically placed these little Angels just at the right time to get me through. I knew they were special but again I didn't make it important in my life at that time. Honestly for many years only the negative aspects (or as I perceived them then) stood out for me.
After Beau triggered my awakening, I really have made so much effort to be more conscious and have gratitude for those lights in my life; my Angels; my Soul Mates/friends; my Karmic Connections and , of course, my Twin Flame aka forever love.
Who are your Angels in your life?
Light & Love,
Lily Belle
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