So today I get an email from a psychic that writes on Twinflames and Soulmates. She explains that Beau as a Twinflame is my illusion. I sort of felt like that from time to time to tell you the truth but only because he always felt an arms length away in that we could never seem to connect our physical life together traditionally. Beau and I talk about our vision for our future but every time I tried to take a step forward with him he would back up 10 more! It never seemed to mesh.
The psychic went on to say that she sees a man coming to me. A beautiful man. My Beau is beautiful. He is a very handsome man. I can't imagine anyone more beautiful or anyone else who makes me feel that way. She went on to say that we will marry next spring (heck I haven't met him yet!?) and have 1 boy and 1 girl (Beau and I have already planned to have two ) and be very, very happy. In addition, she said he was a business man, which, is something that always came up in my cards about my future partner. She also said that in order for me to meet him that I must clear the Karma with Beau. I must let him go.
I, in fact, have been telling Beau since he left here that we need to clear Karma. That I felt the love we have for each other is from another life. His dragon showed me this before he left here. He showed me his death and my girls (my kids now) and I grieving for him. I knew then that part of my fear of being away from him was just that; losing him again. So I push him away. It's my way to deal.
The thing is, every time Beau and I are apart (physically or not communicating) I learn so, so much more about myself. I am happy and I work on ME. I have realized this for over a year now. I hate being away from him but I KNOW that I do more for myself when we are apart. I knew when he left for Tennessee that it would be really hard but that I would learn and he would learn so that one day we could figure out where we wanted to be. Yes.....I've fought it for three months now. Really? One year since I've known he was leaving....this is my way. To shield in times that may tug on my heart strings.
On our birthchart it shows that Beau and I have karma concerning love and power. It also shows that our two lessons in life are MONEY AND COMMITMENT. Further, our birth chart report states that we have the deepest love that anyone could have while we plan our life separately for our individiual purpose and not so much together. Hello? Is that not the making of Twins who need to work on their SELF for themselves as one? Just saying...
My note is not so much about proving I'm right. I mean the psychic weeks ago online told me a man comes to me. A dream I had months ago showed a man coming to me that would help me in my spiritual ascension. But then I think back and tell myself that still could be anyone. The psychic said that this man was close to me. He was in my aura field and he is physically somewhere close to me. He is coming. With 2012 coming I think back to how people interpreted that over the years. They say the world is coming to an end. Just like 2000, it will probably come and go. Perhaps this man will come in to teach me something and go. Perhaps 2012 is not the end of the world but the end of the old world. Maybe the new man is my new BEAU? A man who has risen, spiritually.
I've had several people write me lately questioning what other psychics said. I think what I have been told over the years can be interpreted all different ways and I can piece together all what I have been told and make some sense out of it. We as humans can twist anything to make it fit our perception. I, as a reader, even know that there are mistakes and there are also misinterpretations; either by reader or readee. In the end though, the way I decided to deal with this whole TWINFLAME thing is to work on my psychic cords. Tonight I am going to do a meditation and remove anything negative from my aura. I will remove any cords (Karmic attachments) from myself and ask that my Guides and Angels as well as Beau's, supports us in the most positive way and in the highest good.
If he is my Karmic Connection then he and I will part in love. If he is my Twinflame then we will unite again in love. Either way, we win.
I love you Beau.