So what is conscious imperfection? I think it is when you are beginning to recognize the habits and character within yourself that you are starting to realize no longer serve you. The trick is that you are acknowledging the need to change but haven’t yet mastered the “new” you. It’s like the old saying goes, “It’s hard to teach an old dog new tricks” or the alcoholic who finally admits he is an alcoholic but every now and again falls off the wagon in challenging circumstances. Conscious Imperfection is most certainly the level before you make the perfect transformation in the NEW YOU.
I have made so many changes this year and yet in some areas of my life I have still lacked the ability to successfully and consistently make permanent change. For instance, I finally received a good bit of child support recently and I blew a lot of it on shopping. Now, mind you, I shopped for the girls and I put some money into the house but mostly I shopped. Shopping has always been my vice when I am under stress and usually that stress is money or escape from other things like problems with relationships. I think we all have one but some of us just don’t have good control of it and this is mine.
On a happy note, I have managed to look for the lesson in every challenging relationship before I “bark” back too hard and try to find something positive out of it. If I can’t I try to find what it is about this person that I have a struggle with in myself. I see it a lot with Beau. I see what he does and I know for a fact I use to function in the same way or think in the same way. It’s hard to be mad at someone that you know is YOU or at least at one time and that observation helps to remind me of what I am continually trying to change within myself. My personal journal has been my best friend in the last 18 months. It has helped me to look back at the circumstances I write about and gain a different perspective. Each time I read I learn more about myself and keep my conscious imperfection from returning to ignorant bliss. I don’t want to be the person I was. I want to be the person I am and continue this process of change/transformation.
I am thankful for my Twin-flame who, unconsciously or not, helped me to see how to improve myself and all my Soulmates who have been a part of my life and helped to shape me toward perfection to help raise the Earth vibration. Are you with me?
Love & Light ~ LilyBelle