My doubt is from my old fears and my journaling on my Twinflame experience reflects this as I go back and forth between my new and old SELF. So I still have my moments when that ego kicks in to protect ME, as it's the job of ego. That doubt has created some" text" arguments with us as we never fight in person. We have never been able to use fear or anger in person but the main thing is that it is our fear or old ways of thinking that cause us to question things and when we question things it can go two ways: You can fight it or face it. I've been made to face it all since Beau walked in my life. Every time I see him I am reminded of the power of our connection; our love and our mission in this life.
I believe that Soulmates truly come into your life to help you grow but they do it by telling you what you need to know or consciously challenging you. Twinflames are different because they "show" you.They are you. So you are witnessing yourself which can sometimes cause conflict when you have a lot of inner work still to do and your Twinflame has walked into your life. For me, it was like I was slapped in the face with ALL of my life lessons at once but with love. Sounds weird right? It is odd but it is beautiful all at the same time because your Twinflame is constantly growing with you. As you grow, they grow admist all the challenges you two face (i.e. being married to someone else, change of location,other circumstances that divide you physically, etc) you still have the incredible, unconditional love which feels just unbreakable while also understanding whatever happens is for the good of both. There is an "inner knowing" that the situation, as challenging as it may be, is going to end in the highest good once both Twinflames understand the underlying work of their individual self.
..and that's where Beau and I are now. Working on our individual selves . I have come to realize that is why we are in the situation we are in with me still being married after an almost very hostile divorce and Beau moving back to his home state to go to school. We both know what we have to do but we both know as much as we love each other that we have to deal with our lives prior to our meeting in the right and most loving way. I read once, that when a Twinflame is faced with their other half who is married or other distancing circumstances where the two of you feel like you're being held back from being together, this means at least one of you has to clear and open your heart.
For Beau and I, it is both of us and we work at this every day by working on ourselves and as I journal and track our exchanges and our experiences I hope to share with you the work of opening your heart to God's love because that is where it begins as unconditional love is God's love aka LOVING YOURSELF. ~Love & Light~ LilyBelle
P.S. For those of you who have been faithfully following. I never did come up with a good excuse for deleting Beau from my Facebook and he never asked. He just sent another request, said "love you, glad we are friends again but I didn't know we weren't" and "LOL". Ah, It's those "mini dramas" that keep us laughing. Our old selves always trying to dig their way back in, that silly ego. :)