We were discussing Lesson 6, The Power of Light. As we discussed light and vibrations our group got deeper and deeper into how it affects our daily living. I began to talk about writing our "life stories" before we incarnate as a response to another comment when one of the book club members asked if she “wrote in” a horrible experience that he/she had, which I will not mention here. I understood his/her concern and it is a valid question that I have my own opinion about which may not be in line with you as the reader but here it goes:
As humans it's hard for us to consider that we don't think in the same way on the other side. I don't think there is judgment as we know it there. I also believe that what we consider good or bad is not realized there either. This is a human character. It's not so much that they don't care what happens to us on this Earth plane but that whatever does is part of our growth or someone else’s and that we truly never die. With that said, I think when we write our life stories we aren't necessarily writing for anything bad to happen. We are writing what lessons or information we want to take back with us when we complete our life here. It's also a vibration; a thought; a formula in energy. It's part of the mathematical equation of our life; only a part. So we know coming in what we will learn and we may know if we contracted with other Soulmates, Twinflames but how all this goes down is determined by other factors upon our arrival. Consider too, that any time you (as well as others contracted with you) can change your plan or "life story" at will and that you are continuously attracting through your thoughts and actions, shaping the "how". So much to consider here. So did this book club member experience what they did because there was a lesson in it? Was it an event that occurred that would turn his/her in the right direction to get the support, the inspiration or the knowledge to help his/her on their path? Who knows. I can't say for sure as only that individual can for them but one thing is for sure, in all things in life we don't always have a choice with what happens but how we respond to it. I also want to add that I think once we become "awakened" and begin to be conscious of our thoughts we then attract more positive outcomes and the “how‘s“ in the experiences that we seek for our spirit.
My own awakening has been a rough ride in many ways. Great mostly but tough changes. I thought for a while that this would be about me but in all my changing and lessons I see how this is shaping my own family to include my kids. Before Beau left to move home he asked me to figure out the pain in his back. We were working on Reiki anyway and I was glad to do it. When I started to focus on that area a Dragon showed himself to me. Beau and my youngest daughter "Bo", who also has the same birthday as Beau, both work with Dragons. So I was immediately interested in what this Dragon had to show me. He promptly started to show me pictures of a past life which I think was approximately in the 13th century. There was Beau on a horse dressed in what appeared to be Knight attire. The next picture was of Beau dying on the edge of a cliff and to follow that: me, our two children, an angel and Beau after he had been found and passed on.
I told Beau what I had seen and he then showed me the cliff he had in his dream. I never noticed that he had this very cliff in a very large tattoo he had. The dragon in that same tattoo was similar to the guide in my visions. Later that day I laid down for a nap and the pictures from that past life (or same life in another time?) kept going. I tried to feel the energies of the people to see if I knew them or not and the pictures focused on my then oldest daughter. She was about 10 yrs old. I felt like they wanted me to pay close attention so I did and recognized the energy suddenly. It was my PRESENT oldest daughter. As I continued to watch that life play out in my head it showed me that she had a terrible experience with the man who stepped in and took care of our family after Beau passed. The energy of the man was my now husband who I have been separated from and only recently been in a state of "truce" to figure out where our relationship is going. The only thing the visions/vibrations showed me is that this man in that life either "took advantage" of my daughter then or they had bad relations in some way. Either way the vibes were not good between them. Also, the youngest boy, my then son, was shown to be my youngest daughter now.
Fast forward to now. My oldest daughter and husband aka Soul-mate never got along since meeting when she was 4 years old. I can't explain why exactly. I know she has always been full of energy and truly has a mind of her own since very young but still there was always something about the two of them. As a young child she never attempted to get close to him as a dad even though she was so young when most little ones connect with adults, even new step-parents. She does call him "dad" but they have always been at odds and as she got older it only appeared to get worse. The relationship between my husband and the other children seem pretty normal. Yes, he is strict and has his fixed opinions on parenthood but any negativity always seems to be directed at my oldest and her with him. I will also add that my daughter always explained to me that she NEVER felt comfortable around "older" men. This wasn't anything from her childhood that we can remember as we have talked but a feeling she has had since very young. I might also add that my youngest gets along fine with her step-dad. They were always very close. I realized after the visions with Beau and this, that there needed to be a healing. After all this time of wondering what our connection was about, perhaps this experience with my husband was not about me . I talked to both of them briefly about this two weeks ago and they ignored it, even laughed. I let it go until we, as a family, were faced with some very difficult circumstances concerning my daughter that transpired this week.
While logging on to my laptop that my oldest daughter uses I came upon a Facebook chat between my daughter and her friend. It was just a nightmare for me, as a parent, to have read what was happening with her and I felt just helpless over all of it. Of course I talked to her about it but then I had to decide what to tell my husband, her step-dad. My first fear was that he would be really mean to her. I didn't know what to do. He really has been her dad since she was 4 and I had to find a way to explain what had occurred. I just felt he needed to know.
Everything that occurred after that was to my complete and utter amazement. I gave her dad the details and he looked pretty upset but stayed calm. My daughter came out of the house and saw us talking. We brought her in on the discussion. I finally left the area only to return later and be told "we are having a father-daughter discussion". This was a first but I wasn't going to argue. My daughter came inside the house crying, in sort of a happy, relieved way and my husband too. The energy between them changed; my youngest daughter realized this later too but not knowing they had talked. In fact the energy of the whole house changed. A healing had occurred. After 11 years, peace was felt between the both of them.
Perhaps you don't believe in past lives or even other parts of us existing in other dimensions/other times. Maybe you don't believe we have bad things happen that spark good outcomes or healings. I believe sometimes it takes something "bad" (as we perceive bad individually) to wake us up. The events that took place in our house had different meanings to all and changed how I was interpreting my own "awakening". "Hello Lily Belle, This isn't all about you!" Did I spend these last 10 years with my husband to finally see a healing for my daughter? Maybe! Was it worth it? You betcha!
We might have our own individual stories to play out but as humans we are also playing out a story together. We are learning individually and together all at once. We can create positive outcomes for our existence or negative. We don’t want bad things to happen but it’s stepping back sometimes and just thinking through our response to it that makes for the best results. It’s hard to be always conscious of this; of our responses in our daily lives. It’s just about trying to make it our daily practice. # 4 in “The 4 Agreements”, always try your best. That’s all we can do.
Maybe you are wondering what happened with my daughter and that “terrible event”. She is fine. In fact, it isn’t anything that wouldn’t be normally faced by a teenager in SOME degree or form in this day and age. It was huge to me and somewhat huge to her and my husband but all interpreted it very differently. Whatever the significance was it has now been replaced by the positive feelings that manifested as a result.
Love & Light,